this afternoon I was writing down a few things I needed from the store in an old notebook. I flipped the page to continue my list when I stumbled across a note I had written to myself:
one day you may feel lost and one day you may forget who you are but please remember these things:
-you are your own responsibilty
-there is nothing scary in your room, go to sleep
-happiness can be found in clean sheets
-but remember cheap laundry detergent sucks
-cold air feels good in your lungs, breathe deep
-familiarity makes you feel anxious, remember to adventure
-you first, always
-you alone are your future
-the sun will always rise, even on a rainy day
-always open your blinds and tie back your curtains
-“we’ve only just started this party”
-take a walk even if you don’t know where you are going
-the sun will always burn your skin. (I swear if you mess up our skin I will be so mad at you. wear sunscreen!)
-stop buying bagels, you never eat them
-think deep and find beauty in the little things
-I told you he wasn’t the one
taped to the back was a $20 bill and sloppy cursive,
“I bet your gas light is on.”
my dog was supposed to be a police dog but he failed the training for it because he was too much of a wimp. the trainers said that when he was supposed to be attacking dummies he’d run up to them and roll over and wag his tail and they also said he was the worst failure they’d ever seen
Tell her why she’s perfect for you. Pick her up and pretend like you’re going to throw her in the pool. She’ll scream & fight you, but secretly she’ll love it. Protect her. Hold her hand when you talk to her. Look at her like she’s the only girl you ever want to be with. When she least expects it, pull her in close & kiss her hard. Tell her she looks beautiful. Tickle her, even if she says stop. Get her mad, then kiss her. Let her fall asleep in your arms. Call her. Give her piggy-back rides. Kiss her forehead. Be slow. Don’t push anything. Make her feel loved. Kiss her in the rain. When you fall in love with her; tell her.
You will fall in love with someone who’s cold and always seemingly pushing you away. When all is said and done, they will be forever known as the one person you couldn’t get to love you. Unfortunately, it will hurt and sting worse than the good ones, the ones that chopped up your meat for you and picked out an eyelash from your eye and were nice to your mother, because love often feels like a game we need to win.
- I lost my virginity at a party.
- I lost a follower when I was sleeping.